Today is my last day in my house before I move into my dorm at university (pics coming as soon as i settle in!) and I don't really know what to feel. I think everything is just a mixture of feelings right now.
There's the feelings of nervousness from having to leave everything I know and venturing into an unknown and potentially scary place. As an anxious person, I don't like being in a place where I don't know exactly what's happening to me, or being in places where I'm not in total control. Being in a foreign place forces me to experience both of those at the same time.
I also feel excited and adventurous. At university, I'll be able to reinvent myself, find new friends, and experience "adult" life. (I put adult in quotes because who am I kidding? I'm not an adult :P ). I can feel the sense of freedom at my fingertips. I'll be able to do whatever I want, whenever I want, with reason, of course. (Midnight snacks galore!)
There's also stress. University is so DARN expensive! Whyyyyyy >.< But also, apart from the price tag, there's also the stress to do academically well. School hasn't even started and I've already received emails from profs on quizzes and evaluations happening in September.
I think all endings and beginnings, like this one, are faced in a similar situation—one with many mixed feelings. So, it's time to put behind my childhood (at least for now), and start moving in the direction of something new—university!
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